Direction

Over the past several weeks, I’ve begun to put serious thought to my “next” direction in life. I feel that I’ve been treading water for about two years — just living/surviving rather than thriving in my life. The big question is one that we all address at times…

Who am I?
Hmmm…good question. At the moment, the role in my life that provides the most satisfaction to me is “Maya’s Mother.” That’s great, but it’s not a role that pays the bills. The roles in my life that *do* pay the bills are ones that just don’t quite work for me, for various reasons. If I ask myself how I’d feel about doing the same things now five years from now, the answer is definite: I want my life to mean something. Right now, (beyong parenting), I don’t feel that meaning exists. For better or for worse, work defines much of our identity…and I’m not satisfied with that side of my identity.

In early January of 2004, I had a “lightbulb moment” when I realized that grad school could/should be in my future. I was just adjusting to the idea of changing my life radically when something else happened that would change it for me, in a very different direction. In some respects, I’m sorry that I’ve put off further education as long as I have, but it’s been for the best reason possible, one that gives a whole new level of inspiration to my desire to find my own way of making the world a better place.

Over the next few posts, I’m throwing thoughts out, so I can stop revisiting the same ideas — writing them down helps the ideas seem more real. There may not be much coherence to these at first. (Ha! Or ever…)

So far, I’m interested in parts and pieces from four different programs, within three different colleges at DU:

Psychology: Developmental

Education: Child, Family, and School Psychology

Human Communication: Interpersonal and Social Communication

Human Communication: Culture and Communication

Next: What interests me about these programs, ideas for what I’d do post-school, and a look at how they would fit together — if DU would allow me to create my own multi-disciplinary degree.